"Manu's Virgin..!!"

     No matter so far, so unreachable are you..
Still every a while, you touch me and woo..
     Mumbling through my mind, - "Hey, my Sonu..!
Just give a couple of days, to your Manu..

     A day will arrive, your life will bloom..
I would be the Bride, you, the Groom..
     No, I can't predict, when will approach leisure..
But down here or upstairs, it's the fate for sure..

     It's not like I don't, love you anymore..
It's those kith and kin, in between therefore..
     Let me sort out, who can't anybody else..
Cause without a struggle, success never hails..

     Yes, I'm coming, but dear would you wait ?
Would you forgive, if I become too late ??"
     Now let me tell you, "Oh, my Honey Bunny..!
You are my eternal half, my soul's harmony..

     Recall those days, when to you, I confided..
Void I kept within, my everything I handed..
     I saw you as Mom, Sis, Baby, and my Wife..
You turned my Love-Idol, and my life..

     That Kiss, that Hug, that Word and that Tear..
Today I repent and yearn, for that yesteryear..
     I wish I knew someone, who can lend..
That Dream which you and me, did spend..

     No Sona, without you, I won't live or die..
No matter how much, would I whine or cry.."
     Am happy being Widower, free of any sin..
It's a Fortune to die, as "Manu's Virgin..!!"

                                                      - Sumiet's Diary

                            This was written and treasured as Manu's 23rd Birthday Gift..

                          

ख्वाब...

जो मैं सोचता हूँ, यहाँ वोह होता है |
मेरे दिल की ईबादत, यहाँ कोई तोह सुनता है ||

यहाँ की शांती से, मन मेरा संभलता है |
मेरे अंदर का शक्स, मुझे सामने दिखता है ||

अच्छाईयाँ है हर तरफ, यहाँ तोह बडी सुंदरता है |
मुझ जैसे मरने वाला भी, यहाँ सदियों तक जीता है ||

यहाँ हर घडी हर वक्त, मुझे जिसका खयाल रेहता है |
मेरी आँखों के सामने, एक जिसका चेहरा होता है ||

यहाँ मेरी अमीरी का, ना किसी को हिसाब मिल सकता है |
के सारे जन्नतो का नूर, उसके नाखून में समाता है ||

उसके मिँठी साँसो से, मेरा जहाँ मेहेक उठता है |
जिसका मन और बदन देख, कोहिनूर भी शरमाता है ||

ऐसी मेरी बिवी का मुझसे, यहाँ गेहरा एक रीश्ता है |
वोह मेरी मनु जिसे "सोनपरी", खुद येह खुदाह पुकारता है ||

मेरी जमीन उसकी गोद, यहाँ उसका चेहरा मुझपे छाता है |
उसके सींदूर भरी माँग से, मेरे मौत का हैवान भी काँपता है ||

यहाँ हम दोनो के बींच, ना कोई आँ पाता है |
बस मै -- मेरी मनु, और कुछ नही रेह जाता है ||

आज यहाँ बस गया हूँ मैं, मेरे लौटने की नही संभाव्यता है |
क्यूँ के प्यार बनके मेरा मनु, मुझपे रातदीन बरसता है ||

अब ना उठाओ मुझे नींद से... यारों मेरा जीँ घबराता है |
क्यूँ के एक ख्वाब ही है जो... मुझे मेरी "मानसी" से मिलवाता है ||

                                                  ~ Sumiet's Diary

This was written in the remembrance of Manu..

Jiah Khan's Suicide Note..

Jiah's letter to Suraj Pancholi..

"I don’t know how to say this to you but I might as well now as I have nothing to lose. I’ve already lost everything. If you’re reading this I might have already left or about to leave. I am broken inside. You may not have known this but you affected me deeply to a point where I lost myself in loving you. Yet you tortured me everyday.

These days I see no light I wake up not wanting to wake up. There was a time I saw my life with you, a future with you. But you shattered my dreams. I feel dead inside. I’ve never given so much of myself to someone or cared so much. You returned my love with cheating and lies. It didn’t matter how many gifts I gave you or how beautiful I looked for you.

I was scared of getting pregnant but I gave myself completely the pain you have caused me everyday has destroyed every bit of me, destroyed my soul. I can’t eat or sleep or think or function. I am running away from everything. The career is not even worth it anymore.

When I first met you I was driven, ambitious and disciplined. Then I fell for you, a love I thought would bring out the best in me. I don’t know why destiny brought us together. After all the pain, the rape, the abuse, the torture I have seen previously I didn’t deserve this.

I didn’t see any love or commitment from you. I just became increasingly scared that you would hurt me mentally or physically. Your life was about partying and women. Mine was you and my work. If I stay here I will crave you and miss you.

So I am kissing my 10-year career and dreams goodbye. I never told you but I received a message about you. About you cheating on me. I chose to ignore it, decided to trust you. You embarrassed me. I never went out, I never went with anyone else. I am a loyal person. I never met anyone with Karthik I just wanted you to feel how you make me feel constantly.

No other woman will give you as much as I did or love you as much as I did. I can write that in my blood. Things were looking up for me here, but is it worth it when you constantly feel the pain of heartbreak when the person you love wants to abuse you or threatens o hit you or cheats on you telling other girls they are beautiful or throws you out of their house when you have no where to go and you’ve come to them out of love or when they lie to your face or they make you chase after them in their car.

Or disrespects their family. You never even met my sister. I bought your sister presents. You tore my soul. I have no reason to breathe anymore. All I wanted was love. I did everything for you. I was working for us. But you were never my partner. My future is destroyed my happiness snatched away from me.

I always wished the best for you, was ready to invest what little money I had in your betterment. You never appreciated my love, Kicked me in the face. I have no confidence or self esteem left, whatever talent whatever ambition you took it all away. You destroyed my life. It hurt me so much that I waited for you for ten days and you didn’t bother buying me something.

The Goa trip was my birthday present but even after you cheated I still spent on you. I aborted our baby when it hurt me deeply. You destroyed my Christmas and my birthday dinner when I came back. When I tried my hardest to make your birthday special. You chose to be away from me on Valentines Day. You promised me once we made it to one year we would get engaged. All you want in life is partying, your women and your selfish motives.

All I wanted was you and my happiness you took both away from me. I spent money on you selflessly you would throw in my face. When I would cry for you. I have nothing left in this world to live for after this. I wish you had loved me like I loved you.

I dreamt of our future. I dreamt f our success. I leave this place with nothing but broken dreams and empty promises. All I want now is to go to sleep and never wake up again. I am nothing. I had everything. I felt so alone even while with you. You made me feel alone and vulnerable. I am so much more than this.”

                                        REVIEW FROM AUTHOR..

As I dived through her soul reading the every word she wrote.. I felt the storm which she underwent..
It was a horrible experience for me.. Frankly speaking.. Main toh dar gaya..!!
Shaayad mujhe yaad aa gaya jo mere saath hua tha..
Theek isi tarah Jiah.. main andhere main kho gaya tha..
These people will love you.. will use you.. then leave you without any valid reason..
They will never know how it goes on us.. They will live happily..

Yeh Pyaar main kyu hota hai... Yeh Pyaar main kyu hota hai...

Kyu kisiko dua ke badle dua nahi milti..
Kyu kisiko hasi ke badle hasi nahi milti..
Kyu kisiko wafa ke badle wqafa nahi milti..

Yeh Pyaar main kyu hota hai... Yeh Pyaar main kyu hota hai...

Actually I would also blame all those people.. same as Suraj Pancholi.. who did exist in her life by some na some role.. (e.g. Family, Friends, Acquaintances..)
Ek Ladki ka depression tum logo ko uske suicide ke baad hi pataah chala..?
Aur ab hamdardi jataah rahe ho..?
Kya hota agar uski dil ki baat jaankar us gehraai tak uski Taqleefain samajh lete..?
Jiah ne theek kiya.. as by her perspection.. lekin Suraj tune bahot bada Gunaah kiya hai..
Fir se usne Ladkon ka Image kharaab kar di hai..
Ek ladki ki zindagi barbaad karna kya hota hai woh tujhe tab hi pataah chalega jab teri ek beti hogi aur use koi tujh jaisa mil ke woh karega jo tune kiya hai..
And as by Law.. tu sala bada Aadmi hai.. you won't get a deserved punishment legally..
But still one day.. you would find yourself in that dark place where you threw a Girl who loved you more than her world..

And Ms. Jiah Khan.. I won't say you : R.I.P... rest in peace..
Cause I want you to come back soon here with more beautiful life and fulfill your wish.. those sweet imaginations which you left behind..
But please let me add you.. Never ever do such thing again..
Love is the most difficult game to play with..
Yaha har jagah dhokha hai.. kadam kadam pe Buraayiaa hai..
Sambhaal ke chalna..
Aisa haath na pakadna jo andhere main ghoom ho jaaye..

And dear BOYS and GIRLS..
Sab tarah ke Mazaak chalega.. par kabhi Pyaar ka mazaak nahi karna kisi ke saath..
Duniyaa main bahot saari cheeze hai.. bahot saare khilone hai.. is Dil ko toh chhod do..
Don't ruin anybody's life only just for your selfish means..
It really hurts.. it really does..

Once again Jiah.. you made us cry.. Stupid.. :'(
23 saal ho gaye mujhe.. lekin tujhsi Ladki nahi dekhi..
I salute you.. Mmmuuuaaahhh.... :-*

REFERENCE..

Sumiet23

A reason to smile..

Aww.. so sad.. your story would melt a granite.. still it's a heart..
God has done a great injustice with you..
Nobody did judged you right..
It looks bad to see your eyes flooding tremendously..
How surprising it is to watch a destiny rusting which had a golden past at a time.

You know.. it's simple sure to misunderstand a person..
Hmmm.. let be.. they and their wish.. we can't force anybody.. we can't shut their mouth.. we can't stop them from their will.
Knowing of you.. one old song is humming on my lips..
"Duniya main kitna gum hai.. mera gum kitna kum hai..
Logo ka gum dekha toh.. main apna gum bhool gaya.."

Would you listen now what am I saying ?

I want to show you how much happiness you owe right now.
Just see na.. there are people who are physically impaired.. like.. some are blind.. or deaf.. one can't speak and the other has lost his leg in an accident..
Some are resting helplessly on bed.. while plenty are losing their mental ability by some na some tragedies..
Some look real ugly.. some are drowned in addiction..
Many are illiterate.. struggling in the blazing sun for just a small sum..
There are people living in dowry since ages.. generation to generation..
Here everybody has their own grieves.. but some conquers them.. while others become slaves.

And see yourself.. you have plently of things for which you should be grateful and happy..

Kya hua jo kisi ne yeh Dil tod diya.. use haq hai woh tujhe pyar kare ya na kare..
Common now yaar.. just cheer up.. Life is too short to waste it sobbing..
There are many many things which are waiting for you.. just look around.. there are countless of things which could please your heart.. healing it slow and steady..

Get up.. stand erect.. stretch your hands.. view this lovely nature.. mix with the people who are really interesting in their own way..
Look yourself in mirror.. mess your hair.. take your shirt out.. notice the beauty on your face.. listen to your favourite music.. shake your body and dance on the song.. "Apna har din jiyo jaise ke aakhri ho.. jiyo toh har pal aise jiyo.. jaise ke aakhri ho.."

Hop in your car.. speed it up with a long drive.. hang out with your friends.. make new acquaintances.. wave your hand to a person.. even if you don't know.. start some white mischief.. feel back those childhood days.. eat your charming dishes.. sing songs with your deep heart.. lift that small baby and kiss it on lips.. hug those lovely pets.. start seeking for needy ones.. help them at your best.. do think that always there is a person somewhere who needs you..
Make others smile.. it will make you too.
Involve in sports.. Games.. or whatever you like.. read comics.. magazines.. boost your IQ.
Wear new outfits.. change your get ups.. ready yourself.. make yourself beautiful.. Grab some nice postures and have some awesome clicks.. these memories will never end..
Get indulged in your career.. make your parents to be proud of you.. show your skills.. arts.. talents.. yeah.. you have something in your body.. just wake it up..
Seize your dreams.. make them come true..
Laugh out loud.. from your belly.. even for small jokes.. yes.. you have the right..Enjoy the every moment.. don't let your mind to think a second of your past bad events.. just forget them.. only remember the happiness.. nothing else.. never drop yourself to low.. no.. start loving yourself.. love them who want..
Don't be bad.. but also don't be over good..
Just forget what happened back.. look ahead.. start a new life..  forgive them.. they still don't know where they have mistook.. let be.. it's their lookout..
Find the right path for you.. grab the opportunities.. big or small.. but they are worth..

Yaad rakh.. naraaz nahi rehne ka kabhi.. you wouldn't be able to do a single thing being depressed..
Listen.. always do remember.. In this each & every while.. there is a reason to smile..

                                                         Mandy  

Ek Deewana sa..

Ek ladka tha Deewanasa.. Ek Ladki pe woh marta tha..
Din raat aur 24 ghante.. Usi ke baare main sochta tha..

Dil toh us ka alag hi tha.. Jis main sabhi ke liye pyaar tha..
Bina kisi swaarth ke jo Apnaapan.. us ka jeena hi ek aadarsh tha..

Aansoo toh usne bahot bahaaye.. Par tha aankhon main hasee laaye..
Sab ko woh pal main jaan leta.. Lekin uske jazbaat kisi ko samajh na aaye..

Kisi se woh kuchh nahi chaahta tha.. Sirf sab ko use khush dekhna tha..
Aur koi toh use duniya main apna kahe.. Bas yeh hi ek Dua maangta tha..

Nafrat thi use har buraayion se.. Naraj tha sab ke bewafaaion se..
Joh kehta woh toh wahi karta.. Fir bhi Dhokha mila use achhaaion se..

Har Ladki uske paas aati.. Palak jhapakte pyaar main kho jaati..
Par Badnaseebi yeh thi uski.. Ke har Ladki use Khilona samajhti..

Ek Ladki thi us ki Jaan.. Jise samajhta tha woh Bhagwaan..
Par woh kuchh aisa kar gayi.. Dil ke badle le gayi Jaan..

Sach main woh toh tha ek Ajeeb sa.. Pehchaan pana usko tha namunkeen sa..
Na Jaane kaha se aaya tha.. Par tha toh woh Ek Deewana sa..

                            Mandy