Rasta..

Baadal chhaya hai teri yaado ka.. kuchh dikh nahi raha..
Boj aa gaya hai dimaag pe mere.. dil bhi kaam se gaya..

Barsa de ya hataa de tu inko.. yaar kitna mai tadapta rahu..
Tu mil ja mujhse ya fir abhi.. mai tujh mai samata hoon..

Tujh se mila jab mai.. meri saanse yoon tham gayi..
Shayad laga hoga unhe.. yeh ghadi ab ruk si gayi..

Baaho mai liya maine tujhe.. mehsoos karne ke liye..
Aayi awaj tere seene se.. Paagal tu hi hai mujh mai..

Kitni khoobsurat hai tu.. mai tujhe yeh batata raha..
Pata hi nahi chala kab mai.. tere jaal mai fasta chala..

Pyar jo maine kiya dinbhar.. tujhe ab raat mai miss karta hoon..
Shaadi kar le ab tu mujh se.. aa nayi ek zindagi suru karta hoon..

Par teri paane ki khushi ne.. mujhe ek bada khwaaf de di..
Ke Tu agar chali gayi kabhi.. to meri toh maut hi aa gayi..

Geer gaya hoon itna mai.. kya bataau tere pyaar mai..
Meri hone waali beti mujhe.. ab pukaar rahi sapno mai..

Chhod ke aaja na tu sab.. tujhe meri mohabbat ka wasta..
Judaai mai tere dikh rahi.. mujhe meri barbaadi ka rasta..

- Sumiet..

An Advice..

Bettu..

Yes Papa..

May I sit next to you..?

Hmm..

Oh my baby.. I can't see you so low..
Won't you share anything with me ?
Am I so a stranger to you..?
What's the matter sweetu..?

Nothing..

Hmm.. Maybe..
But your tears are saying it all..!
May I say you something ?

Sure Pa..

You know it really hurts when you can't stop missing that person who actually doesn't even think about you..
That person would never realize how you feel without him..
Your love, affection and care doesn't matter for him..
Beta.. You are nowhere wrong.. But also you ain't doing any right..
The moment you start thinking about else.. At the same moment you stop thinking of your own..
And this leads your life to a way to desert..
Here you will find your life of no means..
And in this phase.. Neither you live.. Nor die..!
You will not be able to eat properly.. Sleep properly.. Behave properly..
You lose your wit and sense of making decisions..
But on the other hand.. That person who once used to say that he'd die without you.. After a period of time you will catch him enjoying his life without you.. And at its fullest..!
Nobody can die for anybody.. It's just a matter of saying..
You know dear.. When I was young.. There was a girl in my life who made me discover the thing called love..
She gave me the stuff called addiction..
She introduced to me those feelings which were yet to rise with my hormones..
She changed me completely..
She was the only one girl with whom I shared my everything without any shame..
I was so confident about her love that I was dwelling on seventh sky..!
But one day came when I was collapsed to the hell..
She broke me in such a way that still today I'm finding it impossible to recollect those pieces of my soul..
Babbu.. You know.. Some people will enter in your life.. Will show you a new world..
Will share everything with you.. Will make you dream of a new life..
But in a moment will flee away from your life without any glimpse of them back again..!
They will play with your heart and body.. Trashing you at the end..
Sonu.. Still today I love that girl so much..
How foolish of me na ?
I never married.. Cause I never wanted to share those things and moments which I shared with her..
After her.. Several girls came in my life.
But as they came.. So they went..
They made promises.. They broke promises..
But all were unable to replace her from my heart..
And here with me left a thing forever.. Thing called love..
Sona.. The way I chose.. I don't want you to..
In this 21st century.. Love doesn't exist..
Here everywhere is lust..
A cycle of three elements.. LSD.. Love.. Sex and Dhoka..
Here nobody cares for you after getting satisfaction..
That's why beta.. Don't love these inhumans..
Love is the most precious thing.. Don't waste it on them who don't deserve..
Instead.. Love yourself..
Who would think and care for you if you don't..?
Yes.. I'm aware of how much loneliness you are feeling within..
You are now a grown up.. Young and matured..
You must be missing him..
His voice.. His love.. His touch.. His presence..
And this emptiness can be filled by no other else.. Not even by me..
You have a dream of a life where you are someone's wife and a mother..
But beta.. For such a successful life.. Love needs to be at both ends..
Even if one end leaves off.. It hurts badly the other.. Just like a rubber band..!
So baby.. It's sake to forget all those things which were lie as a dream..
Truth is always bitter.. But do accept it..
It will never disappoint you..
Bus do remember that you are the only one who could feel you.. Understand you.. Thus could love you..
You can't depend on others for your own life..
Kick such stones out from your mind and heart..
It's quite better to stay single if being in love hurts you like hell..
Less it will please you.. But more it will tear..
As I am..
And that is the main reason for why I adopted you..
Chalo betu.. Now got to go..

Papa..

Hmm..?

Thank you.. And I love you..!

Oh my sweetheart.. I love you 2.. 3..4..5..6..7..8..9..10..
My doll..my cake..
Mmuuaahh..

Mwaahaa.. Byeee..

Bye..
But ha.. One thing..
Don't think that what I said now all was a parental lecture..
But it's an advice.. From a soul to its heart..

KARWA CHAUTH..

Aaj ka din main kabhi bhool nahi paaunga..
Bahot pyara.. bahot meetha.. bahot shaant..
Aaj ke din agar tum hoti toh main khoob rota.. tumhare pyar main..
Aaj maine kuchh jana.. pyar ke shakti ko mehsus kiya..
Bus.. aaj maine sab kuchh paa liya..!

Barso se tumhari raah dekh raha hoon.. Bahot door jo chala gaya hoon tumse..
Par fir bhi humesha mujhe lagta raha.. ke tum mere agal bagal ho.. mere saath hi rehti ho.. Pyar se mera naam leti ho.. mere chehre pe haath firoti ho..
Aye sona.. tum kitna mujhe chaahti ho..
Meri Biwi pe naaz hai mujhe.. Biwi ho to aisi.............

Sona.. aaj mujhe bahot yaad aa rahi hai tumhari..
Bahot rona aa raha hai.. par haaye.. yeh aankhein roh bhi nahi paa rahi..
Kya karti ? Subah se paani tak nahi piya hai na maine..
Ab yeh aankhein toh kaha se paani laayengi ?
Sona.. tum bahot khoobsurat ho.. bahot pyar aa raha hai mujhe tum pe..
Aaj mujhe kuchh soojh nahi raha..
Khud ek lekhak hote hue bhi mujhe aaj shabd nahi sujh rahe.. tumhari taareef ke liye..
Bus itna kehta hoon.. Gali main aaj chaand nikla.. Tum aaye toh aya mujhe yaad.. gali main aaj chand nikla..............

Par us chaand ka kya muqabla is chaand ke aage..?
Bus.. ek reet poori kar raha hoon..
Aaj band hone se pehle meri yeh aankhein do chandon ka darshan karengi.. ek woh.. aur ek tum.. meri Manu..

Sona, I never believed in god.. was an atheist.. and still is.
But still today I've kept this fast.
I always had a laugh on other's worship.. hasta raha main un ke vrat vaikalya.. yadnya yaag.. upaas tapaas dekh kar..
Par aaj tum mat hasna mujh pe ha.. please promise me you won't..
Sona see na.. moon has risen too..!
How sweet.. how cute.. how cool.. how silent.. how handsome he is..!
Ha.. but not more than you.
Cause he has got a stain.. A stain of Betrayal.
Woh kaha.. aur Tum kaha..!!
Tum toh bus kya kahoo.. is jaha ki.. mere jaha ki.. Aadimaya Shakti ho.. A beauty angel !
Sona.. Today I have spent my day in your name.
Today I didn't do any wrong deed.
No sin.. no mistake.. Neither spoke harshly to anybody.
Despite being lack of money.. I spent some for my friends.. to feed them Bhelpuri..
Today I realised that happiness which one get after feeding others self being starved..
Bus.. aaj kuchh tamanna na rahi.. ek tumhare siva..

Chalega.. tum shareer se door raho mujhse.. par dil se bus meri rehna.. aur mere hi dil main rehna..
Saaton janam main tumhare, main saath rahunga yaar..
Mar bhi gaya toh main tumhe, karta rahunga pyar..!!

Today I'm breathing.. but tomorrow I will die.. Then there will be reincarnation !
Fir main naya janam loonga..
Fir se hum dono Nalasopara main honge.. bacche ban ke ek saath school jayenge.. KBC khelenge.. fir kabhi main tumhe peechhe se dekha karunga..
Aur fir woh din aayenge.. jab hum jawan honge..
Par kuchh judaai ke baad hum fir milenge.. fb pe.. fir se hum dono dost ban jayenge.. Aur ek din aayega.. hum dono main pyar ho jayega..
Fir hum ho jayenge ek duje ke liye.
Fir wahi pyar bhari raatein aayengi.. aur aisi ek raat jo aaj hai.
Kuchh farak na hoga.. bus tum bin wah raat na hogi.
Fir chaand aayega.. main use dekh aankhein band karunga..
Fir tumhe saamne bithaake main in aankhon se mere chand ke darshan karunga..
Bus tumhe dekhta hi rahunga.
Shaayad yeh aankhein beh jaayengi.. par wah baat alag hogi.
fir main tumhe baaho main bhar loonga.. seene se laga loonga.. aankhein band ho jaayengi..
meri dhadkan tumhari dhadkano main sama jaayengi.
Main kho jaaunga.. kahi door..
Par fir ek awaj aayegi.. jo mujhe hosh de jaayegi.. "Sona.. mooh kholo na please.. paani pee lo na.. ab toh chhod do na.. tumhara yeh.. KARWA CHAUTH !"

 

                                                                                                                                                               

                                   Sumiet's Diary..

"Manu's Virgin..!!"

     No matter so far, so unreachable are you..
Still every a while, you touch me and woo..
     Mumbling through my mind, - "Hey, my Sonu..!
Just give a couple of days, to your Manu..

     A day will arrive, your life will bloom..
I would be the Bride, you, the Groom..
     No, I can't predict, when will approach leisure..
But down here or upstairs, it's the fate for sure..

     It's not like I don't, love you anymore..
It's those kith and kin, in between therefore..
     Let me sort out, who can't anybody else..
Cause without a struggle, success never hails..

     Yes, I'm coming, but dear would you wait ?
Would you forgive, if I become too late ??"
     Now let me tell you, "Oh, my Honey Bunny..!
You are my eternal half, my soul's harmony..

     Recall those days, when to you, I confided..
Void I kept within, my everything I handed..
     I saw you as Mom, Sis, Baby, and my Wife..
You turned my Love-Idol, and my life..

     That Kiss, that Hug, that Word and that Tear..
Today I repent and yearn, for that yesteryear..
     I wish I knew someone, who can lend..
That Dream which you and me, did spend..

     No Sona, without you, I won't live or die..
No matter how much, would I whine or cry.."
     Am happy being Widower, free of any sin..
It's a Fortune to die, as "Manu's Virgin..!!"

                                                      - Sumiet's Diary

                            This was written and treasured as Manu's 23rd Birthday Gift..

                          

ख्वाब...

जो मैं सोचता हूँ, यहाँ वोह होता है |
मेरे दिल की ईबादत, यहाँ कोई तोह सुनता है ||

यहाँ की शांती से, मन मेरा संभलता है |
मेरे अंदर का शक्स, मुझे सामने दिखता है ||

अच्छाईयाँ है हर तरफ, यहाँ तोह बडी सुंदरता है |
मुझ जैसे मरने वाला भी, यहाँ सदियों तक जीता है ||

यहाँ हर घडी हर वक्त, मुझे जिसका खयाल रेहता है |
मेरी आँखों के सामने, एक जिसका चेहरा होता है ||

यहाँ मेरी अमीरी का, ना किसी को हिसाब मिल सकता है |
के सारे जन्नतो का नूर, उसके नाखून में समाता है ||

उसके मिँठी साँसो से, मेरा जहाँ मेहेक उठता है |
जिसका मन और बदन देख, कोहिनूर भी शरमाता है ||

ऐसी मेरी बिवी का मुझसे, यहाँ गेहरा एक रीश्ता है |
वोह मेरी मनु जिसे "सोनपरी", खुद येह खुदाह पुकारता है ||

मेरी जमीन उसकी गोद, यहाँ उसका चेहरा मुझपे छाता है |
उसके सींदूर भरी माँग से, मेरे मौत का हैवान भी काँपता है ||

यहाँ हम दोनो के बींच, ना कोई आँ पाता है |
बस मै -- मेरी मनु, और कुछ नही रेह जाता है ||

आज यहाँ बस गया हूँ मैं, मेरे लौटने की नही संभाव्यता है |
क्यूँ के प्यार बनके मेरा मनु, मुझपे रातदीन बरसता है ||

अब ना उठाओ मुझे नींद से... यारों मेरा जीँ घबराता है |
क्यूँ के एक ख्वाब ही है जो... मुझे मेरी "मानसी" से मिलवाता है ||

                                                  ~ Sumiet's Diary

This was written in the remembrance of Manu..

Jiah Khan's Suicide Note..

Jiah's letter to Suraj Pancholi..

"I don’t know how to say this to you but I might as well now as I have nothing to lose. I’ve already lost everything. If you’re reading this I might have already left or about to leave. I am broken inside. You may not have known this but you affected me deeply to a point where I lost myself in loving you. Yet you tortured me everyday.

These days I see no light I wake up not wanting to wake up. There was a time I saw my life with you, a future with you. But you shattered my dreams. I feel dead inside. I’ve never given so much of myself to someone or cared so much. You returned my love with cheating and lies. It didn’t matter how many gifts I gave you or how beautiful I looked for you.

I was scared of getting pregnant but I gave myself completely the pain you have caused me everyday has destroyed every bit of me, destroyed my soul. I can’t eat or sleep or think or function. I am running away from everything. The career is not even worth it anymore.

When I first met you I was driven, ambitious and disciplined. Then I fell for you, a love I thought would bring out the best in me. I don’t know why destiny brought us together. After all the pain, the rape, the abuse, the torture I have seen previously I didn’t deserve this.

I didn’t see any love or commitment from you. I just became increasingly scared that you would hurt me mentally or physically. Your life was about partying and women. Mine was you and my work. If I stay here I will crave you and miss you.

So I am kissing my 10-year career and dreams goodbye. I never told you but I received a message about you. About you cheating on me. I chose to ignore it, decided to trust you. You embarrassed me. I never went out, I never went with anyone else. I am a loyal person. I never met anyone with Karthik I just wanted you to feel how you make me feel constantly.

No other woman will give you as much as I did or love you as much as I did. I can write that in my blood. Things were looking up for me here, but is it worth it when you constantly feel the pain of heartbreak when the person you love wants to abuse you or threatens o hit you or cheats on you telling other girls they are beautiful or throws you out of their house when you have no where to go and you’ve come to them out of love or when they lie to your face or they make you chase after them in their car.

Or disrespects their family. You never even met my sister. I bought your sister presents. You tore my soul. I have no reason to breathe anymore. All I wanted was love. I did everything for you. I was working for us. But you were never my partner. My future is destroyed my happiness snatched away from me.

I always wished the best for you, was ready to invest what little money I had in your betterment. You never appreciated my love, Kicked me in the face. I have no confidence or self esteem left, whatever talent whatever ambition you took it all away. You destroyed my life. It hurt me so much that I waited for you for ten days and you didn’t bother buying me something.

The Goa trip was my birthday present but even after you cheated I still spent on you. I aborted our baby when it hurt me deeply. You destroyed my Christmas and my birthday dinner when I came back. When I tried my hardest to make your birthday special. You chose to be away from me on Valentines Day. You promised me once we made it to one year we would get engaged. All you want in life is partying, your women and your selfish motives.

All I wanted was you and my happiness you took both away from me. I spent money on you selflessly you would throw in my face. When I would cry for you. I have nothing left in this world to live for after this. I wish you had loved me like I loved you.

I dreamt of our future. I dreamt f our success. I leave this place with nothing but broken dreams and empty promises. All I want now is to go to sleep and never wake up again. I am nothing. I had everything. I felt so alone even while with you. You made me feel alone and vulnerable. I am so much more than this.”

                                        REVIEW FROM AUTHOR..

As I dived through her soul reading the every word she wrote.. I felt the storm which she underwent..
It was a horrible experience for me.. Frankly speaking.. Main toh dar gaya..!!
Shaayad mujhe yaad aa gaya jo mere saath hua tha..
Theek isi tarah Jiah.. main andhere main kho gaya tha..
These people will love you.. will use you.. then leave you without any valid reason..
They will never know how it goes on us.. They will live happily..

Yeh Pyaar main kyu hota hai... Yeh Pyaar main kyu hota hai...

Kyu kisiko dua ke badle dua nahi milti..
Kyu kisiko hasi ke badle hasi nahi milti..
Kyu kisiko wafa ke badle wqafa nahi milti..

Yeh Pyaar main kyu hota hai... Yeh Pyaar main kyu hota hai...

Actually I would also blame all those people.. same as Suraj Pancholi.. who did exist in her life by some na some role.. (e.g. Family, Friends, Acquaintances..)
Ek Ladki ka depression tum logo ko uske suicide ke baad hi pataah chala..?
Aur ab hamdardi jataah rahe ho..?
Kya hota agar uski dil ki baat jaankar us gehraai tak uski Taqleefain samajh lete..?
Jiah ne theek kiya.. as by her perspection.. lekin Suraj tune bahot bada Gunaah kiya hai..
Fir se usne Ladkon ka Image kharaab kar di hai..
Ek ladki ki zindagi barbaad karna kya hota hai woh tujhe tab hi pataah chalega jab teri ek beti hogi aur use koi tujh jaisa mil ke woh karega jo tune kiya hai..
And as by Law.. tu sala bada Aadmi hai.. you won't get a deserved punishment legally..
But still one day.. you would find yourself in that dark place where you threw a Girl who loved you more than her world..

And Ms. Jiah Khan.. I won't say you : R.I.P... rest in peace..
Cause I want you to come back soon here with more beautiful life and fulfill your wish.. those sweet imaginations which you left behind..
But please let me add you.. Never ever do such thing again..
Love is the most difficult game to play with..
Yaha har jagah dhokha hai.. kadam kadam pe Buraayiaa hai..
Sambhaal ke chalna..
Aisa haath na pakadna jo andhere main ghoom ho jaaye..

And dear BOYS and GIRLS..
Sab tarah ke Mazaak chalega.. par kabhi Pyaar ka mazaak nahi karna kisi ke saath..
Duniyaa main bahot saari cheeze hai.. bahot saare khilone hai.. is Dil ko toh chhod do..
Don't ruin anybody's life only just for your selfish means..
It really hurts.. it really does..

Once again Jiah.. you made us cry.. Stupid.. :'(
23 saal ho gaye mujhe.. lekin tujhsi Ladki nahi dekhi..
I salute you.. Mmmuuuaaahhh.... :-*

REFERENCE..

Sumiet23

Ek Deewana sa..

Ek ladka tha Deewanasa.. Ek Ladki pe woh marta tha..
Din raat aur 24 ghante.. Usi ke baare main sochta tha..

Dil toh us ka alag hi tha.. Jis main sabhi ke liye pyaar tha..
Bina kisi swaarth ke jo Apnaapan.. us ka jeena hi ek aadarsh tha..

Aansoo toh usne bahot bahaaye.. Par tha aankhon main hasee laaye..
Sab ko woh pal main jaan leta.. Lekin uske jazbaat kisi ko samajh na aaye..

Kisi se woh kuchh nahi chaahta tha.. Sirf sab ko use khush dekhna tha..
Aur koi toh use duniya main apna kahe.. Bas yeh hi ek Dua maangta tha..

Nafrat thi use har buraayion se.. Naraj tha sab ke bewafaaion se..
Joh kehta woh toh wahi karta.. Fir bhi Dhokha mila use achhaaion se..

Har Ladki uske paas aati.. Palak jhapakte pyaar main kho jaati..
Par Badnaseebi yeh thi uski.. Ke har Ladki use Khilona samajhti..

Ek Ladki thi us ki Jaan.. Jise samajhta tha woh Bhagwaan..
Par woh kuchh aisa kar gayi.. Dil ke badle le gayi Jaan..

Sach main woh toh tha ek Ajeeb sa.. Pehchaan pana usko tha namunkeen sa..
Na Jaane kaha se aaya tha.. Par tha toh woh Ek Deewana sa..

                            Mandy

येह पाप तोह सभी करते है..

येह पाप तोह सभी करते है.. कर के फिर सीने मे दफनाते है..
जब करने से कुच्छ नही लगता.. तो क्यू केहने से शरमाते है..?

येह पाप तोह सबको पता है.. पर क्यू हर कोई मासूम दिखता है..
इस दिल के बदले मे क्यू.. हर कोई जीस्म का सौदा माँगता है..?

येह पाप तोह सभी पे छाया है.. बचपन से ही इसने सताया है..
यारो.. इसी के पेट मे से तोह.. यहाँ हर एक ईन्सान आया है..

येह पाप के तोह है सारे काम.. कोई होता महान तो कोई बद्नाम..
शादी के बाद जो होता है प्यार.. वही क्यू शादी से पेहले है हराम..?

येह पाप तोह सबसे झूठा है.. जाने कितनो को इसने लूटा है..
सौ बार खाने के बाद भी.. क्यू येह जेहेर मीठा है..?

येह पाप तोह खुषनसीब है.. देखो ना कैसे सब के करीब है..
यहाँ अमीरजादों को सब माफ.. और गुन्हेगार सिर्फ गरीब है..

येह पाप ही तोह रीश्ते बनाता है.. सजाके फिर तोड भी देता है..
कभी अच्छा लगता है बुरा.. तोह कभी अच्छा भी बुरा बन जाता है..

येह पाप तोह एक नशा है.. जिसे चढी उसकी दुर्दशा है..
पर क्यू लोगों के लिये जन्नत.. और मेरे लिये आँसू हमेशा है..?

येह पाप तोह हम दोनो ने किया.. लेकिन उसने जहाँ से छुपाया.. और मैने बताया..
येह पाप तोह सभी करते है.. पर, हाय रब्बा कोई तोह बता दो.. मै ही अकेला क्यू पापी बन गया..??

                                           Sumiet23
This was written in the remembrance of Manu..

पुन्हा जगावसं वाटलं..

आज सकाळी अचानक एक नवल घडलं..
आरश्या समोर उभा राहून मी स्वतःला पाहिलं..
"किती गोड दिसतोस रे तू.." माझ्या मनाने सांगितलं..
तेव्हा कळत नकळत.. मला स्वतःवर प्रेम जडलं..

अन् आज मला पुन्हा जगावसं वाटलं..

लाल लाल ते सूर्य कसं सागरामध्ये शिरलं..
निसर्गाच्या सुगंधासोबत गार वारं पण सुटलं..
आप आपसात पशुपक्ष्यांनी ताल आणि सूर धरलं..
देवाचे हे सैंदर्य पाहून माझं मन हे रमलं..

अन् आज मला पुन्हा जगावसं वाटलं..

गाडी चालवत असताना मी पटकन ब्रेक दाबलं..
ओक्षाबोक्षी रडताना एक मूल मला दिसलं..
कसं बसं करून शेवटी घर त्याचं शोधलं..
पण जाता जाता मात्र मी त्याला हृदयाशी धरलं..

अन् आज मला पुन्हा जगावसं वाटलं..

कोप-यात बसून अश्रु गाळताना मला एकीने पाहिलं..
"का रे ? काय झालं ?" मग तिने मला विचारलं..
"कोणीच नाही गं माझं.." म्हणत माझं हुंदकं वाढलं..
म्हणाली ती डोळे पुसून.. "का ? मला समज ना आपलं.."

अन् आज मला पुन्हा जगावसं वाटलं.

कुटूंब नाही पैसा नाही असं दैव माझं फुटलेलं..
कोणत्यातरी कारणासाठी जगू असं काहीच नाही उरलं..
पण आज inbox मध्ये एक email मी पाहिलं..
नामवंत त्या कंपनीने मला उच्च पदासाठी नेमलं..

अन् आज मला पुन्हा जगावसं वाटलं..

ब-याच वर्षानंतर आज त्याने मला संपर्क साधलं..
बालपणीच्या मित्रासवे मग खूप दंगा ही केलं..
पुन्हा ती शाळा ते घर सारं काही आठवलं..
पटकन त्याने मला माझ्या लग्नाबद्दल wish केलं..

अन् आज मला पुन्हा जगावसं वाटलं.

बोलता बोलता आज मनात एक विचार आलं..
जिने मला जन्म देऊन लहानाचं मोठं केलं..
जे जे काही मी मागितलं ते ते मला दिलं..
काय होणार माझ्या आईचे मी मेल्यानंतर भलं..?

अन् आज मला पुन्हा जगावसं वाटलं.

पडून होतो मी अंधारात कोणीतरी हाथ माझं धरलं..
"पापा.. नका ना मारू मला.." असं हाक मारत राहिलं..
त्या गोड छकुलीला पाहून मन माझं द्रवलं..
लगेच जागा मी झालो स्वप्न माझं भंगलं..

अन् आज मला पुन्हा जगावसं वाटलं.

वाईट या अनुभवांनी मला खूप काही शिकवलं..
कोणास न दिसणारा देव मला माणूसकीत सापडलं..
दुस-यांसाठी काही तरी करावं असं वाटू लागलं..
मरताना मात्र मन नको म्हणायला "काही तरी राहिलं.."

अन् आज मला पुन्हा जगावसं वाटलं.

जगण्याची ईच्छाच संपली जेव्हापासून मानसीने मला सोडलं..
हृदय दुखतय तेव्हापासून ते आजवर नाही थांबलं..
पण आज अचानक माझ्या मनात हे आलं..
"का जीव देतोस रे ? कोणीतरी आहे तुझ्यासाठी थांबलेलं..
शोध ना जरा तिला जी शोधतेय खरं प्रेम तुझ्यातलं.."

अन् आज मला पुन्हा जगावसं वाटलं..

आणि असच मला आज जगण्याचं एक कारण गावलं..
मानसीचे विसर पडून एकटं राहणं येऊ लागलं..
पण शेवटी तिला दिलेलं वचन मला आठवलं..
"मर जाऊँगा तेरे बिना.." माझच शब्द मला नडलं..
जाऊ दे.. परत पुन्हा एकदा मी मरायचच ठरवलं...!!

                  Sumiet23
This Article was written in the remembrance of Manu..












Yeh pyaar main kyu hota hai.. Yeh pyaar main kyu hota hai..
Kyu kisi ko wafa ke badle wafa nahi milti..
Kyu kisiko duaa ke badle duaa nahi milti..
Kyu kisiko khushi ke badle khushi nahi milti..
Kyu kisiko hasee ke badle hasee nahi milti..
 Yeh pyaar main kyu hota hai.. Yeh pyaar main kyu hota hai..

दगाबाझ...

यही तोह वोह दुनिया है.. फिर भी सब बदल गया है..
दिखते यहाँ तोह सब है.. फिर भी कोई है नही..

मै आज भी अच्छा हूँ.. बदल तोह वोह गयी है..
पर क्यू सभी केहते है.. तू पेहले की तरह रहा नही..

खो गया है सब कुच्छ.. सब जगह अँधेरा है..
मंद सा मेरे जान का दिया.. वोह भी क्यू बुझता नही..?

खेल गयी वोह जीस्म से.. दिल को तोह मार ही दिया है..
खुद को आयिने मे देख.. क्यू उसे मेरी याद आती नही..?

प्यार के सिवा कुछ नही.. हाँ मुझमे कमी है..
पर देखा है मैने उन्हे.. जिन्हे पैसो से प्यार मिला नही..

मेरी तरह तोह नही.. पढी लिखी वोह बहोत है..
लेकिन ईंसानो की तरह.. क्यू उसे जिना आता नही..?

अच्छा ही मै करता गया.. पर बुरा ही मुझे मिला है..
कैसी है यह बेवसी.. माँग कर भी मुक्ती मिलती नही..

जो उसने किया मैरे साथ.. कभी तोह उसे वोह पाना है..
वरना दगाबाझोंके इलावा.. यहाँ कोई नजर आयेगा नही..

                                                            Sumiet23

  This was written in the remembrance of Manu..

देखा है मैने करीब से..

देखा है मैने करीब से | इस जहाँ को गेहराई से | एक इन्सान को बदलते हुए | देखा है मैने करीब से..

आँखे से टपकते खून को | अकेलेपन के स्मशान को | एक सच्चे प्यार को हारते हुए | देखा है मैने करीब से..

रीश्तोंको मरते हुए | वादोंके तुटते हुए | बिछड़ते उस बविष्य को | देखा है मैने करीब से..

अपना पराया हो जाना | प्यार नफरत मैं बदलना | अच्छे कर्मोंका बुरा अंजाम | देखा है मैने करीब से..

जिसने जन्नत दिखलाया | मुझसे गेहरा प्यार किया | उसीने दिये मौत को | देखा है मैने करीब से..

जिसके लिये दुनिया छोडी | जिसे हर वोह बात केह दी | उसीके हर झूठे ग्वाँहींको | देखा है मैने करीब से..

जिसे मैने भगवान माना | माँ, बेटी और बेहेन जाना | उसीके पैर की ठोकरोंको | देखा है मैने करीब से..

उसके चाहत भरे मौसम को | उसके हर एक जीस्म को | एक बेवफा के प्यार को | देखा है मैने करीब से..

दुनिया के सामने वोह अच्छी है | पर अंदर से तोह कुछ और ही है..
कोई ना जान सका उस "और" को...  हाँ.. जाना है मैने करीब से..

                                                   - Sumiet23

                        (This Article was written in the remembrance of Manu)

The Story of Nine Months.. ( 1 )

"The Story of Nine Months" which consists of Awareness, Affection,

Care, Love, Fear, Doubts, Obsession, Stubbornness, Shared Esteem,
Fights, Mistakes, Joy, Understanding, Tears, Sorrow, Emotional
Outbursts, Smiles, Laughs, etc.. etc.. kind of numerous Feelings.. is
a Cycle of Time, by which each and every Human, may be male/female..
undergoes in certain span of Life.

Since the Birth of a Consciousness.. making One soul to Two..
developing day by day with a sweet adorable existence of the Second..
a Heart shares its own pulses within this Guest as if it is nothing
than the Heart itself...!

Steadily.. while gaining its own structure in the world of Love and
Fantasy.. it steps near the boundary of 270 days.. where two Souls
which are bounded in each other are disparately separated with such a
pain and sufferings outside the shield of endurance.. Known here as
"Human Birth".. resulting to the transversion of a shared Heart into
an esteem which can not be ever shared.. and which has absolutely no
way out except the only means of "Understanding...!!"

You are misunderstanding me..
Dekho, tum galat samajh rahe ho - she repeated..

No.. I understood very clearly..
Sorry.. I'm very sorry for troubling you since many months..
Really sorry.. please forgive me if possible.. - I replied.

Aise kya baat kar rahe ho..?
Bas thode dino ki hi toh baat hai..
Iske ilawa aur koi way out nahi hai..
I'm saying na.. we'll talk everyday through messages..
Now please let me refill sms pack in your phone..
See, I'm just next to the recharge center.. see na.. - she consoled..

Nahi.. - I reported.. - Koi jarurat nahi hai..
Itni bhi kya important baat karte hai hum log..?
Faltu main Faltugiri ki baate karne se achha you don't talk to me by any manner.
We won't contact each other untill unless having any specific important excuse.
Don't worry.. when your today's sent courier will reach to me na..
I'll text you.. and you too text me occasionally like when you would
get your C.S. and M. COM. results.

Please re.. - she kept her point interrupting - My Dad.. or else..
will create a controversy.
He scolded me last night when I had done with speaking to you.

Ah ha.. That's what am saying.. you stay with your family na.. be
happy.. why to harass yourself..?
Don't take tension.. leave it.. leave me.. chhod do na mujhe..
Waise bhi tumhe meri jarurat bhi kya hai..?
Kya tumhe farak padta hai.. baat karo mujhse ya na karo..
Do tell your Dad now.. that Sumiet will never call you.. will never
disturb you..
Ha dear.. I'll never ever call you.. never...!!

Now my cries had burst out..
With a big harsh change in my voice.. I was trying to restrain nerves
of my face which were trembling weirdly.. and my teeth.. which were
biting my underlips deeply..

Main tumhe achha ek rasta bata rahi hoon.. suno na meri baat.. humare liye..
Warna woh hum dono ke liye problem kar denge..

Kya karenge woh ?
Mere yaha aayenge ? Police main complaint karenge ? Mujhe dhamkayenge ? ha ?

Nahi re baba.. woh daatenge hum dono ko..

Toh kya ? Mere paas mooh nahi hai ?
Chalo.. I wanna see what he will do..
But leave it.. you leave me.. I understood all of you..
Tumhare Daddy mujhe tumse sadha phone pe baat nahi karne dete.. Shaadi
kya Ghanta karne denge..?
Jaanedo.. tum log raho achhese..
I'm sorry.. I won't trouble you all from now..

Aisa mat karo na.. bas kuchh din thero na.. woh jaane wale hai na..
then we can talk na..

Kaha ? Apne Baap se milne upar kya ?

Nahi.. Nashik.. - she uttered..

Toh kya ? Aayenge nahi kya waapas ?

Dekho.. abhi aur kya karu main..?
Sms se baat kyu nahi kar sakte ?

Sms through would you marry me..?

How's that possible..?

Exactly..!!

See.. there is no way out.. I'm helpless..

There are many ways.. but let be.. we won't contact.. okay..?

Hmmm.. as you wish.. now what I can say..?

Aai shapath.. tiche te "Wish" janu majhyasathi "विष" hote...!

Aur kaunsa rasta bhi toh nahi hai.. - she was repeating..

Raaste ka Kutta hoon kya main ?
- here I bursted outragingly.. -
Jab chaahe use kiya, jab chaahe fek diya...???

Now leaving no strength in me to say further any more.. flow of Tears
started gliding over my cheeks..
Weeping and trembling very worst.. I ended the debate with the red
button following the changing of SIM Card of my Docomo to Vodafone..
whose number she never had..

Laying helplessly.. traumatic shocks were quaking my Brain.
I had totally lost my vitality by her statement.
Perhaps.. our conversation of last night was slipped out of her remembrance..

Mujhe kuchh achha nahi lag raha.. - I told her..

Kyu ? Kya hua mere Shonuli ko ? - she pampered..

Study main dhyan hi nahi lag raha.. aaj maine kuchh bhi nahi kiya
dinbhar.. holiday hote hue bhi.. :-(

Awww.. mere Babbu ki padhai kyu nahi ho rahi ?
Why Bettu ?

Mujhe tumhari yaad aati hai.. :-(
My ears are not satisfying nowadays by your talk of few minutes.

Oh Sonu.. I'm there na with you..

No.. you are there and I'm here..
You are nowhere when I cut my Phone..

Hmmm.. Kya karu.. ghar main Daddy rehte hai na..
Dadaji ke gujar jaane ke wajah se ab koi na koi mehmaan aate jaate hai
gharpe.. :-(

Okay.. then do one thing.. recharge my number with sms pack of rs. 23.
We'll talk through messages.
Mujhe tumhari aadat chhoodani hai..

Why re ? Arey don't think like that re..
I'm calling you na.. as whenever I'm getting time.. without much
knowing of my Dad..

No no.. - I obsessed.. - We'll not hear each other's voice.
You may never know.. but it kills me when I don't hear you.
So better let's discontinue.
I die each and every moment without you.
I'm strongly feeling to see you.
You also forgot your word that you were going to come to me for few
days after your exams.. remember ?

Ha.. yes.. Kaha to tha.. par kya karu..?
You know na.. what's going at my home..?
In add.. you are very far away re.. at Ratnagiri..
How come..

So why don't you approach to some other boy who stays next to you and
love him ? - I interrupted..
Leave me na.. stay away.. stay blessed..

Chup re..
Aise nahi sochte..
Don't bother.. I'll buy Reliance SIM card very soon.. so we can talk
unlimited by the rechare of rs. 195. :-)
Chalo woh sab jaane do.. you say me how's your back ache ?

And she succeeded to change the topic untill unless we kept phone after an hour.

Never had I imagined how it takes no time to change a Girl's Mind..
Ahh.. and her today's words were telling me firmly how she respects her Dad more than me..
How her ears listen to her Dad more than me..
How less my value is in her perspective than of her Dad..
How her fear towards him was quite strong enough to wipe her love and care towards me..
How all the Girls in this World are exactly similar to each ohter..
Nobody is different.. none knows the true way of Love..
Kya bataau use.. bas ek baar keh deti toh dekhti.. how I would had I spoke to her Daddy.. and how had I seized her from her own World...!!
Oh honey bunny.. I shall fight with the whole world.. but only if You are with me...!! ;-(
Hmmm.. But alas...

Laying like a Dead.. I was unable to stop recalling all those words of my Friends.. and as well as of all those unfortunate Boys who were betrayed by their Loves..

Ahh ha.. She is an Unique..
She may not be Beautiful as other Girls.. but she has the most love and care than Anyone..!
She may not be intelligent as others.. but she is quite Picky enough to feel my Feelings..!
She may or not be my First Love.. but surely.. she is my Last...!!
She is the only one in this World.. in whom I had found my own World...!! - My answers used to..

And such used to be their comments.. - Sod re.. Amhala nako Sangu..
Sarv Muli ek saarkhe astaat re..
Bhitre.. Halkat.. Selfish.. Haawrat.. dhokebaaj..!
Aplya Family la kevha dukhwat naahit..
Mulanna badnaam karun swatah maatra Naav kamavtaat..!
Bagh.. ajun khup divas aahet.. tujha break up honaarach..! - they often added..
Kaaran tujhya sarkhya kharya prem karnaryala kadhi khare prem milat naahit.. kaaran tya todichi Mulgich kuthech naste..

Hehehehe... let be.. you would never know.. how she is.. and I am lucky to have her.. - I used to reply.. but now.. I had got to know a big Lesson..
She loves her family indeed more than me..
And I realized its worthness when I saw some of her uploaded Photos in her Facebook Profile for her Dad on his Birthday..

The above Photos really peirced my Heart deeply.. realizing her love for him..
And I was ashame of myself.. interferring in their Lives.. 

Listening my Breathe.. I was mumbling..
Oh  mera shona.. mera pyaar.. mujhe chhod ke chali gayi.. mujhe anaath karke chali gayi..
Uske liye to poori Duniya hai.. lekin mere liye toh sirf woh thi..
Kya nahi sapne dekhe the Humne..?
Humara naya Ghar.. humaari Ek sundar pyaari si Bacchi.. humara pyar.. humaari ek alag Duniya..
Aur kitna kuchh aise baate thi jo mujhe tumhe bataane thi tumhaare Exam ke Baad..
Meri chhupi sacchaai.. kuchh unbataayi baaate..
Lekin tumhe woh sunna ho toh na...!!
Kuchh mujhe pyaar se ziddi banke.. poochhti toh na..!!
Bus chali gayi..?
Na kuchh sunaa na kuchh kahaa...?

Suffering those pains.. I switched on my mobile.. replaced Vodafone with Docomo back again.. just to see her response..
But I was more sunken when she stopped trying to call me only after 11 attempts.. (as I was notified by missed call alert Server).. and only on 8149.. although she would had be able to speak with me on 9028.. as it was not off yet..
But she didn't had that wit..
This remembers me when I caught her in Hospital on their Landline.. as her mobiles were out of Range there..
I had the mind to reach to her bypassing any kind of hurdles within my Way..
And I had did my best several times..
I was mad for her.. Crazy like the Craze crossing all limits..

I waited damn for 10 mins.. but only for vain..!!
She discontinued calling me.. she was fine enough to not have any swings in her Mental Status..

Shayad woh bhool gayi hogi us Pyaar ko.. jo ek zamaane main woh mujhse karti thi..
Mere liye aahein bharti thi..roti thi.. chillati thi.. Suicide karne ki Taare banne ki baate karti thi..
Ek din mujh se baat nahi ho paayi toh Baccho ki tarah aansoo nikalti thi..
Mere phones off karne ke baad mere liye 140+ missed call alerts chhod ke jaati thi..
Woh meri Jaan kuchh alag hi thi Yaaro.. jiski Jaan sirf meri Jaan main rehti thi..!!
Uska woh pyaar aaj se kai gunaah jyada tha..
Kehti thi - Nai Shona.. mujhe koi nahi chahiye.. tumhaare ilawa..
Bhaad main gayi meri Padhaai.. mere Parents.. khana peena sab kuchh..!
Please na meri Jaan.. mat chhod ke jaao na mujhe..
Tumhari yeh Bacchi nahi reh paayegi is berehem Duniya main.. mere Papa..
My World goes empty without you.. re my Hubby..
Your voice is my Drug.. I can't survive a single day without it..
Sona.. mere bhaai.. your Didi wants to play with you.. wanna do many mischieves with you..
Bettu.. your Mumma is incomplete without her Baby..
Na Baccha.. mat jaa mujh se door.. mar jaayegi teri maa..
Ahh.. Come Sonu.. please come back.. ;-(

Woh din bhi kya khushnaseeb the..
Sach the ya jhooth.. lekin meri Duniya sajate the..
Lekin ab bas.. sirf woh yaade.. jo aasuo se bhi nahi behte.. ;-(

It is a worth saying.. - "Time waits for nobody..!!"
Deciding to close my 8149.. number permanently.. I turned it off and replaced it with Vodafone..
Such the dreadness of that moment was.. as if my Heart.. along with its Pulses and nerves.. was weeping tears of Blood..!!

Don't know when my eyes were closed.. perhaps it must be due to my weakness which persisted from last night cause of over increase of Bile Acid.
I had vomits and dysentry several times like as one vomit and loose motion per hour..!!

Now not long as my Eyes were lost in Dreams.. (Daymares.. or whatever..) I found my cell ringing..
With my sleepy eyes.. I unknowingly answered it as I used to do of my Love everyday and Night.. mistaking as it was of herself..
But hosh thikaane aa gaye jab meri Mom ki awaj suni..

Hello.. how are you..?
What were you doing..?
Got your money from her Bank..?
And never forget to preserve that receipt of deposit.. as now nobody is deserving to keep trust on them..
And how's your study..?
Devaache Naamsmaran kartos ki naahi ? Ha ?

Now obviously what answers would anybody had given in this circumstance of her simultaneous queries.. rather than - Hmmm.. Fine.. Okay & ha...??

Just in next few moments after keeping phone.. I was lost back again somewhere in my Past.. which was the origin of this Story..

The horrible look of my Face.. the deadly silence of my laid body.. the tremenduous flow of my tears.. flashed me away back on the day of "2nd April.. 2012.." the beginning of THE STORY OF NINE MONTHS...!!!

(will be continued..)

Forever with you...!!

   Dedicated to my Love..                

                  
          Hold me in your arms, and never let me go..!
Kiss me on my Lips, but sweet and slow..!!

          Tell me that You Love me, but if it`s true..!
Now let me say You, I Love You too..!!

          I will do mistakes in Life, but will say You..!
Let`s stick our Trust, like a paper & glue..!!

          Let`s go in another World, I want You safe..!
And just ignore People, being a deaf..!!

          Everybody is Bad, but we will be Good..!
Nobody has an Idea, how Our Love stood..!!

          I will give You all, for your Sweet Smile..!
Let me flee You away, just hold on while..!!

          You are my Everything, my Life my Death..!
You will never leave me, I have faith..!!

          But if that Times comes, I will do Suicide..!
But for your return, to Live I will Decide..!!

          My Life is for You, Give it or Take it..!
Your Rights are on me, so just grab it..!!

          But never hate me, Please think of me..!
Forever with You only, I want to be..!!
                        

                                                                        

We "Boys.." ------ (a pick for innocent girls)

Being a Boy.. I have spent my whole life with Boys.

Consequently.. I came across with many Boys in my Age span.
And when I realised the Natural Nature of them.. I acknowledged the
fact that we Boys are so called Humans.
Now obviously.. it's no need to say that how much I hate boys and men.
But now only thing I want is.. to unveil a real Boy and his Psychology. ®

® (Dear Boys.. please don't get irritated by which may result you to
mistake me.. or create any misunderstandings.
Ha yes.. there are exceptions in Men.. but.. it's very rare.
And as my perceptive.. 95% of Males are just like this.. which I'm
gonna describe now.

So please read patiently.. and discriminate yourself  Truly..)

WE BOYS...

1) First of all.. when we come with our Dad's semen.. we fertilize
ourselves by killing female cells in our Mom's ovum..
Thus.. Our nature is a natural cruel.

2) We give more pains to our mother than Girls.. in her pregnancy cycle.

3) As we grow up till 4 years.. our reproductive organ (p***s) learns
to expand itself when we encounter sensuality.

4) We start thinking of lust from this minor age..

5) Days and Years by.. we lose our innocence by watching lustful
cinemas.. bad accompanies.. knowing bad things secretly.. playing with
own p***s.. and by observing Girls and Women with their whole body.

6) We prefer going to school and college not for studies.. but.. to
see and to be with beautiful and young Girls.

7) In our Boys Group.. we sit together and discuss about which Girl is
how and how is her internal Body parts..
And whisper.. "Haay Yaar.. kya hot item hai.. Dil karta hai ke bas......................!"

8) When we see any Girl.. we always imagine her unexposed and hidden organs.. resulting several masturbations at Night.

9) We try our best to impress a Girl and to fulfill our Body need.

10) We pretend and act to match a Girl by her feelings and expectations.

11) Despite of having one Girl.. we can't control ourselves when an
another Girl comes in our life.

12) There are always Foul phrases and words in our mouth.. and mind..

13) We hurt Girls very badly.. while physical contact.
We keep enjoying despite of their loud and painful screams.

14) Once we get our means.. the importance of that Girl decreases.
We start hating her and ignoring her.

15) We feel to do bad even with Small Baby Girls above 5 years.

16) At the Day.. we behave very sincerely.. but at Night.. we turn into hounds.

17) Both in physical and emotional love.. We force them very badly.
Our self esteem is so high.. we are unable to feel their feelings.

18) We lie a lot.. We have the trick to divert words and their
meanings.. here to there.

29) We always prefer for Virgin Girl.. but.. we never are virgin ourselves.

20) We never are grateful towards that Girl and her body.. by which
she had satisfied us a lot.
Her moods doesn't matters to us for touching her allegedly..

21) And the last.. we don't know the difference between Lust and Love..



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Sumiet23

An Orphan.

A drop of tear is Gliding through my cheek as some words are spelling
on this tongue from my Grateful Heart.
It's just because somewhere my Time has showed me your Value in my Life.
And it's impossible to return you what you have done for me.. giving
me an only option to cry peacefully.
¤
Never I wondered that Affection, Care, Understanding and Accompany
which you have offered me.
No matter how always I did hurt you, abused you, mistook you.. but you
remained the same.
You are the only One who still has been the Best, at my Worst.
¤
You may don't know that, by granting you, my Destiny has blessed me so
much that I don't need any God in my Faith.
Now the only Plead to you is.. please listen of my Soul which is
asking your Lap to relieve itself till the End.
¤
I still remember the Curse of Loneliness, which my Birth had given me.
I had not a single Acquaintance towards the intimacy of Adoration,
which a Mother gives her Offspring.
Trust me, but a Sentimental Panther was gulping me before you had rescued me.
Therefore I'll consider it as a Miracle, when you filled the Space of my Mum.
¤
¤
And now all is I wanna say..
I love, I love, I love that Person..<3.. who has made me forget.. that
I'm.. "An Orphan.."

Say me First..!! <3

See.. since you have met.. I left my so - called Friends.
There's something Special in you which I was searching for a Long.
Sometimes it happens.. when two Acquaintances become the Best Fellows,
without much effort.
Yes.. you are the only one who understood me, exactly as I am.
You awakened me from a nightmare of complete emptiness.. innovating my Dreams.

And now the only thing I wish is..

No matter who we are.. how we are.. and where we are.. just promise me
that you would follow some Rules..

Hmmm.. Curious about the Rules..?
Okay.. here they are ----->

Whenever would you have something to say..
Say me first..!
Whatever would you do any Special..
Say me first..!
Whoever would you miss by Heart..
Say me first..!
Where would you encounter any Problem..
Say me first..!
However would life may be..
Say me first..!
Whichever would be your hidden Secret..
Say me first..!


Whenever would you become senti..
Say me first..!
Whatever would you wanna have madly..
Say me first..!
Whoever would you find as annoying..
Say me first..!
Wherever would you go far away..
Say me first..!
However would your mistake may be..
Say me first..!
Whichever would be your Doubt..
Say me first..!

Whenever would you misunderstand me..
Say me first..!
Whatever would you feel about me..
Say me first..!
Whoever would you like more than me..
Say me first..!
Wherever would you wish my interfere..
Say me first..!
However would you expect me to be..
Say me first..!
Whichever would my Act Hurts you..
Say me first..!

Yes my Sweetu..
You are my Friend.. till the ever End..!
I'm with you anytime.. anywhere..
But don't forget to.. SAY ME FIRST..!! <3

Addiction.....<\3

 
   Nobody in this World has the Right to interfere in your Life, just to
play with your Feelings.
Somebody arrives from your Dreams.. Changes your everything.. and
Leaves you off at the next moment.
The Affection which you had done.. The Time which you had given.. The
Addiction which you had taken.. goes all in vain, just in a jiffy.
You are absolutely taken aback, when a time comes realising you that
it was only a Delusion which had seized your Sense, since a Long.
You Both had played the Game.. but the Difference is..
You had passed your precious Time.. while that Person had passed the Waste.
You certainly expect the same from that Individual.. which you had offered.

   May be you misunderstood.. or you mistook..
But something is surely wrong when living your Life becomes a Tough,
without Someone.
Love addiction is like a Drug addiction.
Just as a Drinker can't stay without a Drink..
An Inhaler can't stay without a Snuff.
And this Monster of Addiction ruins your Each and Every While of Habitation.

   But being as Human.. it doesn't suits to remain Helpless, despite of
being Independent.
How long to bind yourself, just for nothing.
If that Person doesn't bothers for you at all..
Then why to let those Recalls interrupt your Enthusiasm.
See.. it's an absolute insanity to beg others for your own Life.
Just imagine how it seems that you are pleading a Demon of Addiction
to help you get relief.. instead to kick him off and rescue yourself.


   All in Short..
Just seek and find yourself.. as you are for your own.
Always Mind..

Love must be your Attitude.. but not your Addiction.. it's it.