"Hey.. I think you never had any girlfriend.
You have never loved anybody.
That's why you are talking such.
Love has its own power.
True love never fails. And... blaah blaah blaah.."
He kept on his lecture and I was lost in my past.
He must had not realized that I was not actually hearing what he was saying.
How would I ?
I was now wandering in my lost life and lost loves..
Here I think to write down the list of Girls who came in my life and were called as "Love" at a time..
You must be thinking that "Oh.. He is saying like he is supercool or a hero of an Indian movie..
List of girls.. Haaah.. "
No people.. it's not like that..
But it's my habit that I never keep things within me.
No matter how good or how bad that thing may be.. but I believe in sharing whatever it may be.
Cause this time will go.. this life will go..
My memories will end..
My name will be forgotten..
But yet there will be remaining something.
Something which I've written.. something which I've shared..
Something which I've learnt in my life.. and something which I've tried to say these people here..
Okay leaving the expanding here..
Following is the list..
1) TEJASVI ARYA (1995 - 2001) Mumbai
Hmm.. it was the time of my childhood (I was born at 1990).
She was my classmate in my school.
I don't know why.. but she was the only girl those times who I started liking.
May be cause she was clever.. her handwriting was more beautiful than mine.. or she was always second and third ranker in our class while I was always first.
Only a thing I didn't liked at that time was her attitude.
I still remember the fragrance of her breath.
I didn't knew that she was my crush.. ( as we call nowadays ).
She was nowhere again in my life after I left the school in 2001.
2) RESHMA GOTAWADE (2008 - 2009) Rajapur
I was eighteen and you know what turn the life takes in this age.
I was growing young..
Started feeling hormonal forces.
Started feeling the thing called love and attraction.
Na na.. not before she came in my life..
I was living my spiritual life happily.
I had gained control on the six vices -lust, anger, greed, fear, love and ego.
But she ruined everything.
She started seducing me intentionally.
She started feeling for me too..
And here I was left in a worst baffled stage in my life.
She made me quit my spiritual life and herself got disappeared.
That's a long story.. and I've kept it still alive in the form of a book.
Title is "Vaara banun aali an vaadal karun geli.."
Which means "Came like wind and went like storm.."
3) Sonali Pawar (2007) Rajapur
Taking her in my list in between cause I'll never forget that sweet kiss.
First and last it was..
4) SANIEKA SHINDE (2010 - 2011) Lonavala
Well she is not a girl.. but my baby.
She was hardly of three or four that time.
She came so close to me like she was my own baby.
She was the only girl and will be forever who taught me what parental feelings and responsibilities are.
Ahh.. but she was seized from me after the scandal.
Scandal of Lonavala..
Oh.. Wondering ?
Anyways.. but it's also a long story to tell here.
5) PREETI KARAMBELKAR (2011) Ratnagiri
We met on Facebook and it was my single sided love.
I've written two articles like "Once upon a time on Facebook" and "Love via Facebook."
Go to those articles if you are so curious ;-)
Well that affair ended soon.. and I was hurt too badly..
6) MANASI SHAH (2012 -2013) Mumbai
She is the queen of my list and my life.
She is the only and only girl who I'll never forget.
Now I'll never love anybody as I loved her.
She was my class mate like Tejasvi.
She is from good family and cultural background.
She came.. she proposed.. she loved..
She dragged me completely in the dark fantasy of love and lust.
We shared everything of ours.
I shared my heart, my past, my tears and everything that existed as mine..
But alas.. she left me one day.
She did this for her parents.. ( now I don't know the actual reason)
I was left in trauma.
My life took a big turn here.
Yes it's a long long story of which my blog's major space consists of.
7) MRUNALI SAWAI (2013) Mumbai
I sent an interest to her on Shaadi.com
She accepted.
I used to call her Manu..
Yes.. but she was never my Manu.
She ended her role soon.
8) SWATI DUNDKAR (2013) Ratnagiri
Yeah.. She too met via Shaadi.com
She accepted and we started chatting and talking afterwards.
But she soon got irritated when I started comparing her with my Manu.. Manasi Shah.
She confessed.. she said me that she loves me a lot.
My voice, my nature, she loved many things.
But one day requested me to change myself and forget my past, Manu.
Here I refused and she soon left me forever.
Now she is married.
9) SUMITA SIKKA (2013 - 2014) New Mumbai and now in Rajapur
There is something special about this girl.
Not only our names did match.. but also our visual dreams matched perfectly.
I met her via Facebook and soon fell for her.
I confessed that I love her and first I got rejection.
But later on she too said that she started feeling for me.
Again here I started my comparison.
And soon she too was irritated and left me alone.
10) DIVYA NAGPAL (2014) Delhi
This is Ajab Gajab love.
She lived in Delhi and I was in Ratnagiri.
We met via Yahoo groups.
Soon we started chatting on What's App messenger.
She was married and was 15 years more elder than me.
Had a rich Hubby and a beautiful daughter, Mania.
I said her my depression and my lost love.
She got mixed in my feelings and soon we confessed each other that we loved.
I think she was not happy in her married life.
I wrote a poem for her which she liked the most.
(Have a look.. it is here on my blog)
But one day I blocked her completely when she declined to marry me.
I understood that I'm going out of my track and breaking the rules.
She also never cared to look at me.
(Damn love nowadays people do.)
11) SHREYA LELE (2014 - present) Ratnagiri
We met each other when I was in my career's initial stage.
I was in a Shop and she was in a hospital front of that shop.
The story went long with several breakups and patch-ups.
I wrote many articles for her which were mainly in Marathi.
She became the only one who proved her love and ran away from her home to marry me.
After that, our married life continued.
"Hey dude.. are you listening what am I saying ?
Love is eternal..
It's just that you don't understand it....."
I got shook from my daydream and saw my friend still on his lecture.
I chuckled within my cheeks.
And I thought to show him my "Love list..." ;-)
(Shhh... chup ha.. ab aap mat batana kisiko... ;-D )